In the last 1 month i’ve used more than $1,000 on casino slot machine gambling. After multiple visits to the casino,, i’ve revised it to <$100 and <2 hours per visit (if i’m disciplined) . But even last night after i finished my JOB , even with that plan in mind ,, i went past my $100 and 2 hour limit (maybe since it’s my day off today impacted my action in that i can afford losing sleep). My thought process was that I was already there, might as well just keep going (felt not optimal self after 2 hours).
On machine, i just wanted to see how many RNG event activators were needed to get the Event.
https://imgur.com/gallery/hZhMhfBlook at how big the fire is
..i did the same on different machine (at lowest bet)
https://imgur.com/gallery/eIePiL5look at how big the bag of money is
Part of it was me wanting to the Event/Free Spins Event ,, but it mostly was me wanting to write down how many end result win 0,10, Event activator etc … until the Event happens.
When i go to the casino ,, i find it “fun” meditating in between spins, walk around the casino and draw a map of the place to where the slot machines are, learning the walkways, memorizing the roads i need to drive to get to the casino , revising what day to go to casino , what time , how long to stay, what to eat or not, , which machine to go to or not, looking up internet info/entertainment on slot machines, youtube videos. I have no “want” of actually getting the $100,000 grand prize for money reasons, but i do find it entertaining the idea of getting rng luck “Grand Prize”.
I honestly think i don’t have a gambling problem and instead I have a do something new -> create a problem -> improve on that problem -> feel good about trying to solve that problem …. (addiction) .
But does it matter what the reason is if the end result is still just excessively mashing 1 button on a slot machine and losing lots of money in the process ?